I'm not sure I've ever had a week as crazy or stressful as this one. Even the week of my wedding wasn't this crazy. Life. Hmm. Early Saturday morning, I was sleeping. I thought I heard my phone ring but was so groggy I didn't really know what the sound was. A few minutes later, Sean's phone rang. My dad was calling. I just figured he wanted to know when we were coming because we had planned to spend the day with him for Father's Day. Sean hung up and then came to see if I was awake. He had tears in his eyes as he told me that my cousin, Meghan, and her husband, Jason, had been in a car accident. I started feeling somewhat alarmed. Like I better hurry and get dressed so we can get to the hospital. Then Sean said, "Meghan didn't make it." I felt paralyzed. I was shocked. I remember saying, "Sean if you're joking with me right now, I will hurt you." But I knew he wasn't. I cried. I felt sick. I couldn't think. Where did the accident happen? When did it happen? Where is Jason? Is he okay? Did Meghan have her seatbelt on? She never wears her seatbelt. Does Bo know? Who is going to tell him? When is he coming home? No one knew what was going on. We spent the day trying to make sense of the news. I felt like I was in a fog for several days. Not even knowing what day it was.
I don't know if anyone still knows the complete story. Jason and Meghan were driving home around 3:00am Saturday morning. Jason swerved to miss a deer. He lost control of his truck and was sliding down the road sideways. The truck went off the road and went up in a tree and tipped over. Meghan was thrown from the truck and died instantly. I'm not sure how she was thrown out or how she landed. But her face must have been the first thing that made contact with the tree or the truck. The funeral was closed casket. Very very sad. That makes it harder to know that she is really gone. I kept thinking, "If I could just see her in the casket, then I would know she's really gone." I kept wondering if I could handle the sight if I chose to view her body. I decided I couldn't. Meghan's mother and brother had the casket opened to see Meghan. I asked Bo about it. He said he wished he'd never done it. I don't know how he will ever get that picture of her out of his head.
Meghan was so funny and so special and so nice. She was quiet and shy most times. But she was friendly to everyone. She loved her family. She was probably the most proud of her brother than anyone else. She talked about Bo all the time. Meghan grew up at our house. You could find her and Bo at our house every weekend and most nights of the week. We played all kinds of stuff. Meghan liked to play dolls and Barbies. As she got older she always wanted to play with makeup and fixing her hair. Meghan always made me laugh. She was so beautiful. She loved animals too. She always had a dog she was taking care of. I am going to miss her so much.
Sean was admitted to the hospital for a couple days this week. Sunday night he wasn't feeling well with a stomach ache. Nothing too major. It was a little worse Monday. Monday night it was really bad and he didn't sleep all night. He went to work Tuesday morning and then left to go to the doctor. The doctor checked him over and sent him on to St. John's ER. They ran some tests on him and finally decided to admit him. His pain wasn't getting any better. He had to have pain medication about every hour or so. They did several tests on him: CT scan, ultrasound, EDG, and EKG. They found nothing but a small ulcer on his esophagus. The doctor said that wouldn't cause the pain he was having. Wednesday night his pain started to go away. He was scheduled to have another CT scan on Thursday morning, but the doctor said he needed to wait because he had just had one the day before. They dye in the IV wouldn't work correctly. So, they released him with a RX for pain and Nexium. He goes back in two weeks for another CT scan. We'll see what they find.
I've been having a tooth problem for over a year now. I got two root canals a year ago. I never did go back and have permanent crowns put on. Now, I think my semi-permanent fillings are cracked. It is painful. Wednesday night my mouth started hurting. I could hardly eat. Yesterday morning, the whole right side of my face was hurting. I was about to ask Sean's nurse for a shot of something. It was bad. I took some Aleve and stuff and finally, after a couple of hours started feeling some relief! I've got to get back to the dentist and just have them pull these suckers! They have been nothing but pain and problems for me. Plus, I need to find time to follow-up on my tests done for kidney stones! When do I find time for this?!
I'm also still looking for a job. I thought I had this one nailed. Two interviews. The C.O.O. tells me I'm their top candidate. Then he calls me and tells me they hired someone else. What is up with that crap? Now, I'm back at square one. This is so stupid!
In other more positive news...my sister got a cute swimsuit at Name Brand Clothing for $8! How does she find these bargains?! I want one! And my sister and her kids are here for a few weeks. It's always good to have her close by. My neice and nephew are the cutest things. I love them!
Today is a new day. Here's hoping it's going to be a great one!
Friday, June 26, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Meghan's story according to...
Here is a link to the story that was posted in the Tulsa World.
Visitation is at Luginbuel's in Vinita on Tuesday, June 23 from 6-8pm. Funeral service is Wednesday at 2:00pm at Church on the Lake in Ketchum.
Visitation is at Luginbuel's in Vinita on Tuesday, June 23 from 6-8pm. Funeral service is Wednesday at 2:00pm at Church on the Lake in Ketchum.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Meghan Louise Price Hitchcock
Meghan
November 15, 1987 -- June 20, 2009
Meg saying, "Tonya!"
My sisters.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
running
oh yeah. I ran a mile in 14:03 last night. Shaved 17 seconds off my time. You could say I'm proud.
all-american reject
The dream job called me this morning. I should have known it really was a dream job. After two interviews and the C.O.O. telling me I was the top candidate, he called me to say they hired someone else. Now, can someone tell me what is up with that? Seriously. Honestly, part of me is upset, and the other part is relieved. I've really been praying for the right job. I know others are praying for me as well. I hate to waste time being upset over this, when it really just feels like confirmation that this wasn't the job God has in mind for me. Ok, then. So, God. What job do you have in mind? I'm all eyes and ears. It would be great if you could make it a little more obvious. Ok, God. You're starting to stress me out a little. I need a job. Oh wait. I'm supposed to be trusting you, right? Crap.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
running update
I would also like to add that I ran 1.5 miles yesterday...and walked 1.5 miles. I was pushing myself to see if I could really do it. I can. Dang. I was also trying to go further in distance to try and work out some of the soreness out of my legs. Didn't really help that so much. I've only maintained my weight this week. My body is taking better shape, but no poundage lost. It might be time to start back with the help of my diet pill...or start cutting back on carbs. That will help drop some weight.
I think I'm going to stick with running 1.5 miles for the next week or so. That is pretty challenging to me right now. I need to focus on my endurance right now. I'll have to work on my time later. I really want to make it through the run without stopping. I think I could cut more time off my run after I drop some more weight. I could run faster.
So, next on the checklist...endurance and diet.
I think I'm going to stick with running 1.5 miles for the next week or so. That is pretty challenging to me right now. I need to focus on my endurance right now. I'll have to work on my time later. I really want to make it through the run without stopping. I think I could cut more time off my run after I drop some more weight. I could run faster.
So, next on the checklist...endurance and diet.
nerves
I sure have a lot of nerve. Too many actually. Makes me anxious. Makes me worry. Makes me wonder. Makes me over-analyze. Am I doing the right thing? Am I making the right decision? What if it doesn't work out this way? What if this doesn't happen? It's exhausting.
Philippians 4:8 (Msg) "Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious - the best, not the worst, the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse."
Philippians 4:8 (Msg) "Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious - the best, not the worst, the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse."
Sunday, June 14, 2009
training
I've been exercising with Holly to help her with her volleyball workout. It's been really good. I've lost a few pounds and am starting to see my body take a different shape...a good shape. I've always wanted to run in a 5K or something like that. John 3:16 Mission is sponsoring a run in the fall, and so I've decided to train for it and enter. I'm not sure what my goals are yet, but I'm working on it. I'm excited really! I think I might be getting addicted to running. I've been running on a treadmill. I'd like to do some of my training outside. I'm going to mark a good route outdoors in my neighborhood to start running. I'll be posting some updates on my training in the months to come.
In other news, I'm still looking for a job. I had two interviews last week. I have one this week. I'm wondering if these are my only options, or if God has something else in mind. I should know something about my employment future by the end of the week. That would be good. While I'm not worrying and fretting, I'm trying to rely on God to provide what my family needs and what I want. Not always easy.
Father's Day is this weekend. I'm not sure what to buy for my husband, my dad, or my father-in-law. The thinking continues....
In other news, I'm still looking for a job. I had two interviews last week. I have one this week. I'm wondering if these are my only options, or if God has something else in mind. I should know something about my employment future by the end of the week. That would be good. While I'm not worrying and fretting, I'm trying to rely on God to provide what my family needs and what I want. Not always easy.
Father's Day is this weekend. I'm not sure what to buy for my husband, my dad, or my father-in-law. The thinking continues....
Monday, June 1, 2009
criticism vs. wisdom
I was driving in downtown Tulsa this afternoon. I decided to drive down a street I haven't been on in a while. Unfortunately this was a bad decision. I had to wait briefly at a stoplight. As I was waiting for the light to turn green, I looked over to my left and saw two guys walking down the street. Both had only shorts and shoes on. No shirts. One was bent over rolling his pant legs up to make shorts. The waist band of his pants (no exageration) was 3/4 of the way down on his butt. He did have boxers on. His stomach overlapped the boxers and the pants. Why? I know it was 90 degrees but seriously. Why do guys wear their pants that low? To show off their printed boxers? Is it a sign of suggestion that they are easy? Are they really just trying to stay cool? Are extremely baggy pants the only ones they can afford? Can they not afford a belt? Is not cool anymore to wear a belt? Some guys wear those super baggy pants with belts!! I don't get it. At first the guy totally disgusted me with his saggy pant get-up and his buttcrack. Then I felt bad for him. Is he just trying to fit in?
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