another day, another dollar

It is another day, but I still have only one dollar. Sometimes I only type just what pops into my head at the moment. It's more fun that way. Keeps things fresh.

I'm about to go back to bed for the day. I'm feeling the kidney stone pain. Sadness. It's not comfortable.

I think I'll watch a movie. I forgot I was getting on the computer to do that anyway.

WCA Soccer Champs!

This photo was taken April 18. The Lady Wildcats dominated Grace 3-0 for the State championship! So proud of the girls! My daughter is standing in the back next to the girl with the long-sleeved black shirt under her uniform.

This photo was taken April 25 at the Tri-State Tournament. The Lady Wildcats played Grace again and won 3-1! They are not only the state champs, but the Tri-State champs! Awesome job by the Lady Wildcats! My daughter is kneeling and the third from the left.

Here is my daughter, Holly, with her Tri-State champ medal!

excited!

I'm so excited about what God is doing in my life! I'm so excited about what God is going to do in my life! I'm so excited about the place I'm at in my life! It's really an exciting time. It's been a good couple of weeks...learning, praying, talking, listening. Really good.

I'm not excited about cleaning my room or the kitchen today or folding laundry. I want to sew. All day. I want to get a mocha or vanilla caramel latte, put a movie on and just sew. I even have a new sewing machine I got for Christmas! I just got it out of the box last week. Still don't know how to use it yet. I've got to make time for that. Sewing is awesome.

I'm excited about getting a break from my kids playing sports. We'll have a break for a few weeks before they start back for the summer and fall.

I'm excited about spending more time with my friends. I'm going to start making more time for my friends.

I'm excited.

friends

I'm so thankful for honest, supportive friends. Friends who pray for you. Seriously. Friends who are honest with you. Friends who aren't afraid to be honest with you. Friends who aren't afraid to be themselves. Friends who encourage you to be your true self. Friends who will cry with you...or let you cry. Friends who will scream with you! Friends who will be happy with you!

I think have some friends like that in my life. I want to be a friend like that to other people.

life is a highway

and I do not want to ride it all night long. Sometimes life gets confusing, I guess. At least I'm confused right now. Nothing really makes sense. I'm just having a weird time. I'm awaiting some answers on some things in my life. I keep listening. I keep looking at my phone to see if an email came. I keep talking to some people hoping to hear the answer I'm looking for. I've been waiting in a room all morning with my son at a health clinic. It is no fun waiting. I played with my phone. I watched the video they were showing. I napped. I stared. I listened to everyone talking around me. I prayed. I made annoying noises with my water bottle. I almost cried a few times...from waiting for so long! Waiting isnt' fun. I guess waiting is what you have to do sometimes to get what you want. I was starting to think the doctors made us wait to be called last on purpose. Or maybe they forgot we were even there. What if God forgets I'm waiting? I guess He and I aren't working on the same time table, so maybe there's no danger there. What do you do while you wait? Do you sit patiently in your chair until your name is called? Or, do you bother the receptionist every 10 minutes to see if you're next?

no water

On our way home last night at about midnight, Sean and I noticed our neighborhood streets were soaked. I said, "Wow, it only rained in our neighborhood?" Well, as we got closer to our cul-de-sac we saw the big hole in the ground and barricades. A water main busted somehow for some reason. The city people are working on it. I keep hearing lots of noise and banging sounds. But, every time I check the faucet, there is no water coming out. My mom and dad-in-law are coming tonight. I need to wash some bedding. I may have to venture out and take my chances at a laundry mat. At least I have my 100-pound son to take with me. He will surely defend me if necessary.

pharisee

I should have edited a note to add to my last post. But I guess I'm on a somewhat new line of thinking. Well. I wish I had a book here with me called Extreme Righteousness: Seeing Ourselves in the Pharisees. I read that book in college for my Matthew class. I think I need to read it again. I wonder if I am a Pharisee. So legalistic. So pious. So self-righteous. So self-consumed.

How can I have a true relationship with God living like that? It seems like my attitude would get in the way. My excuses would get in the way. It seems like that type of relationship would be all about control. Does a Pharisee think they can control their righteousness by what they do?

Over the past couple of weeks, I've realized how much of Pharisee I've become and have been. I can't believe how free I feel, how liberated I feel to know I can have a relationship with Christ based on just having a relationship!!! I feel like I've discovered something brand new!

mindblowing

I am completely in awe that God wants me simply for who I am. I can't believe He wants to know me. Seriously, He simply wants me. He simply loves me. Does anyone else even understand that?

change

So, I changed the look of my blog. I was getting tired of looking at the pink. But hey, I might get tired of looking at purple. For now, it's what I like.

I'm resting this week. Well, resting and seeking and searching and thinking and praying and hoping and laughing and spending and more...

What is my limit? Sometimes you come to a place where you just hit a wall; you can't take whatever it is you're dealing with anymore. You just have to stop. You have to readjust and refocus. That's where I'm at today. I've hit a wall. I don't know how to talk to it or reason with it. I don't know how to climb over it or knock it down. I can't find my way around it. That's where paragraph 2 comes in.

God, where do you want me? When? Wow. I guess I'll just have to wait and see.

stir it up

I really don't like when some people share all of their business on their blogs. But then again, I kind of admire their courage to just lay it all out there. Does it take a certain kind of confidence or bravery to be so open and vulnerable with everyone around you? Maybe there's nothing to hide, but is it wise?

There's a lady that I know that I just kind of try and shadow. She's amazing, wise, kind, approachable, and comfortable. She's comfortable with herself, with others around her. Some of the things about her, I want for my own life. So, when she is around, I try and absorb from her. Like I wonder if osmosis would work...hhhmmm. This lady was in town recently, and I had the opportunity to snag a few hours of her time and just talk with her.

I had no agenda other than trying to learn at least one little something while visiting with her. A few hours and some tears later, I did learn a little something. I learned a lot of little somethings. Some of those little somethings I'm having trouble remembering. I recalled something I heard back at OCC...truth is your friend. I should give Kaylene credit for that. That's a good thing to remember.

So, I've been thinking about truth. What is truth? Truth is actuality, a transcendant (surpassing/extending) fundamental or spiritual reality (Webster's). Well, I know the opposite of truth is a lie. God does not lie. He is constant. He can't lie. He can't be unfaithful. So, He has to be truth. I wonder how many truths about God I know. Truth is mentioned in the NLT 269 times. We give glory to God by telling the truth. God's Word is truth. Sometimes truth has to have proof with it. We can led by the truth (Ps. 25:5). The Lord delights in those who tell the truth (Pr. 12:22). Sometimes telling/speaking the truth can be difficult. We must worship in truth. The truth will set us free (John 8:32). The Holy Spirit will lead me into truth (John 14:17; 16:13). Romans 1:19 even says that God has made the truth about himself obvious. We can't oppose the truth (2 Cor. 13:8). Truth can give me confidence. If I don't listen to the truth, I could drift away from it all together. If I am not obeying God, I am not living in His truth. 1 John 3:19...wow...my actions will tell whether I am living in truth or not. Following or living in truth brings joy.

Ok. So, now what? Now that I know better what truth is and what can happen if I do or don't live by it...what is truth? Is there just one collective truth, or are there a lot of smaller truths that I need to know?

it keeps on happening

so, today is my birfday. i will love this day.