today is the day

Today is the day. I will be productive. I will be motivated. I will be determined. To get laundry done. To clean my room. To find a job. To live life with no regrets.

Well....maybe.

break free

Tomorrow is my kids' last day of school. It has been quite a year I'll say. It's been a tough year for me emotionally, but a really good year for our whole family. Relieving the stress of home school is just what our family needed. The kids have done really well in their studies...well, we are still waiting for one particular child to prove that...and they have made lots of friends and gotten to experience so many things. Our home environment is so much more relaxed. At first, I had no idea what to do with myself. No papers to grade. No homework to nag about. No lessons to prepare. No research to do. No book shopping. No kids with me 24/7. It was hard to let that go, and I soon realized how much I missed their company. Thank goodness they still like to talk to me about what's going on at school! The first couple months of the kids being in school I had no idea what to do on my days off at home! I had time to myself! I had free time! Now I have adjusted rather well to my free time, and it ends tomorrow for the summer! Now I find myself thinking of things to keep them busy just to give myself a little personal time! I'm glad the kids will be home. They have worked hard (with the exception of one maybe) and deserve a break. I am so proud of them. Maybe I'll learn how to work hard and be motivated like them!

All three kids are really into sports now. I love that! Holly has learned so much being on a team this year. She has grown and matured so much! She is playing volleyball in the fall and has a summer workout program. I am going to do it with her. Gives her accountability. Gives me exercise. Gives us time to bond. I'm realizing more and more how much she is growing up. She'll be 18 this fall. She's growing up and faster than I realize will be moving out on her own. The boys too. Crazy how time goes so fast.

Time to go pick up my posse!

verbage

Yesterday, Sean and I took a mini road trip. We had good times in the van talking and laughing. More and more we are just loving being together. I think we are coming to a new place of understanding each other better. That's always a good thing. We went to have lunch with another couple who are becoming very dear friends and mentors to us. The atmosphere that is created between people when there are no walls, no hidden motives, no great expectations is the sweetest thing I have ever known. To talk about anything in an open, honest, real and genuine way is so liberating. It's freeing. The more Sean and I are around that; the more we are engaged to talk that way; the more we want to help others experience that. Why can't we be real? Why do we need to hide anything? The one thing about special times like these is that it can take a while to process everything said! That's a pretty cool thing though. Sean and I have a lot to talk about now. We are loving it.

red-faced

So, I have poison ivy on my face. I knew I would probably get it. I was helping Sean work in the yard Monday night. I started trimming limbs and stuff off the fence line. I'd gotten it before back there while mowing last summer. Shouldn't I know better? I checked all the leaves before working. I didn't see any that added up to three...or maybe I just miscounted? The few small spots on my legs are already drying up. The stuff on my face has spread out some and now my left eye is only half open because of the puffy swelling. I've tried to google home remedies. How come no one is sharing their home remedies??!! People, put these things on the internet so others will know what to do! And not have to go to the doctor! I'm going to have to go to Claremore to wait 3 hours just to get a shot. Unless they offer a pill. I'm ready to bargain.

Hey now, you're an all-star...

We went to the Athletic Awards Ceremony last night at the school. The kids each got a certificate and pin for participating in their sport. Holly played soccer. Devon played tennis. Aaron played baseball. There were a few struggles for the kids this season, but they really did a good job. I was really proud to see them get their award last night.

check, please!

Someone told me recently that I'm not really all that outgoing. I'm unsure whether that should be taken as an offense or a compliment. I think I'm borderline. I can be extroverted when I want to be, but I don't like to do it very often. You don't have to be outgoing to make great relationships. I think I'll take it as a compliment. I mean, hey, it just means I'm not obnoxious! Ha!

I sure hate it when people say, "Never mind!" I mean why did they ask you something in the first place? Just to check and see if you're listening? Just to see if you'll actually do whatever it is they had in mind? Sometimes I say "never mind" to people...just to get a laugh. I see how that really sucks now after having it done to me. I'm going to think twice before I do that to someone else again. I want my words to count for something. I don't want to be talking just to add to the air quality.

Yup, it's going to be an interesting week. Hopefully, no flooding...but I wouldn't mind a nice rain storm. It makes for good reading!

rainy saturday

I'm kind of bored. I slept in. I want to go see the Hannah Montana movie. I just might.

1963

Oh what a night. Isn't that how the song goes? It's been a night. I didn't sleep well. Today I'm wondering how you can know when God is speaking to you. I believe He speaks to different people in different ways. But what if you hear wrong? Is it possible to not hear God...I mean, is it possible to not hear God is you are purposefully praying and seeking and listening for Him? I guess I just really don't understand. Does God confuse us on purpose? No, probably not. Wow. I don't get it.