Everyone else has gone to bed. I'm still up perusing facebook.
It happens every time I get to visit with my sister. As the time closes in for her and her family to head back home, I start getting this feeling in the pit of my stomach. No, it's not all the soda I drank. No, it's not all the candy and sweets I devoured. It never fails. Sadness. My sister lives 10 hours away, and visiting each other just isn't that convenient. Regret. Why didn't we spend more time talking or playing cards or just laughing? Fear. What if I don't get to see her on the next planned vacation?
Yet, there are positive emotions, too. Warmth. Just being with my sister and being able to do stuff together makes my heart happy. Peace. There's nothing like being with people who love you no matter what. Love. If even for a few short days, nothing can replace that time of getting to share life with my sister, my brother-in-law, my niece and nephew.
Even though the sadness, regret and fear creep in, I focus on the warmth, the peace and the love. If I keep focusing on the negative, I will miss the wonderful moments I do have with my family.
Family. People. Others. Relationships.
It's what life is all about. I wasn't meant to be alone, to fly solo. I guess I always thought that meant I was supposed to be married. That's not necessarily the case. God created me for relationship. Relationship with Him foremost. And relationship with others. I have really isolated myself over the last few years just because of personal and private circumstances in my life. I've been trying to survive and recover from the last 4 years of life. This new year will be different.
2014. I will enjoy and live in the moments I have with others. I want to learn from others. I want to treasure and focus on the positive and warm moments of life with my family and dear friends. I will learn from and focus on Christ.
